Decidedly Absent

I have been decidedly absent from this space for quite some time now – it’s probably one of the longest periods of time I’ve gone without writing on my blog but I won’t apologise. Why? Because I’m not sorry and I think the word is far too overused so make a conscious effort to only say it when I mean it. I’m not sorry that I took a little step back to regroup and have some ‘me time’ so to speak, but I am sorry that I did so without warning. It isn’t fair to my regular readers, and to the new ones – I’m sure you had enough of my previous posts to keep you entertained if you so wished.

Writing has always been a coping mechanism for me. I found it difficult to talk to friends about things going on in my head when I was little because I didn’t think like most children my own age so I would either write it down in the form of a journal entry or a poem. And that is how my love affair with words began. In the past few weeks a lot has happened; mostly good, great and amazing things interspersed with a little bad. I’ve met some wonderful new people, gotten involved in some exciting projects, learnt a little more about myself and the nature of man, started a new job (which I really enjoy) and lost two family members.

When there’s a lot going on in my world, I tend to produce my best work in terms of poetry and yet in the past few months I’ve managed to write one poem and one poetic ramble. I call it a poetic ramble because it was more a purge of emotion that I wrote in 10 minutes that just happened to be quite rhythmical plaintive prose when I read it back. I’m told that emotional times are when I should be writing on my blog because whether it’s a good or bad emotion I’m feeling, others will be able to relate to it and would probably be quite happy if I shared. As much as I’d love to, I am not that type of blogger.

I love reading about things others have been through as I can often relate but any time I get tempted to share much more of myself with you, the part of me that cherishes privacy takes over and I stop. I found that my decision to start a blog came with a certain degree of pressure to make my life an open book. I’ve never wanted it to be and hope it never becomes one. I think people live/share far too much of their private life in the public domain and may one day live to regret it. But, having said that I am open to being a little more open with you guys (within reason) so stick with me and we’ll see where 2011 takes us!

My posts won’t be as long as they once were but it means I’ll be able to write more frequently without feeling as though my inability to reach my imaginary word limit renders it unworthy. Although I haven’t been writing on here, I have been writing elsewhere, namely: The Tip Online. So, if you haven’t heard about the e-zine already, click and read when you get the chance. I have quite a few features on there now so that should keep you busy for a little while. Before I forget, if you’d like to get in touch with me, you can email me at: complex.simpliciti@googlemail.com

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